Last night, I had my first real screaming and storming out of the room argument with Cam. It was over his not committing to anything. School, lacrosse, martial arts, cross country, ... He just doesn't seem to care about anything enough. I regret the fight and will apologize tonight. There is some pathology in wanting my child to be better than me. Part is driven by fear for what his future might look like and part is driven conceit. I also try very hard not to hover and then find myself feeling that I am not involved enough and overcompensating. IDK.